Hannibal's house in Baltimore, Sunday evening

[sharp_as_knives]

Hannibal had decided to forego the dinner tonight; after returning from the zombie play on the island, there wasn't time for anything elaborate, and he had a feeling Raven might not want much anyway.

So instead, there was a bit of wine and some very good cheese in the study, and he sat waiting in a very comfortable chair.


[OOC: waiting for one! NFB]

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[sharp_as_knives]

"Nothing lasts forever," Hannibal noted. "Why does that make you nervous?"

[trigons_child]

"Because I am the spawn of the demon Trigon," Raven said softly. "Buried within me is the will and the ability to wage evil and death. And that nature, on more than one occasion, has overpowered me to become one with the darkness. And I can feel it growing inside me again."

[sharp_as_knives]

"What does it feel like?" Hannibal asked. "What makes it stronger now?"

[trigons_child]

"I do not know," Raven said, shaking her head. "It comes and goes...no, it is tied to my emotions. Anger, fear...but I do not feel those now. Pride, perhaps. Envy."

[sharp_as_knives]

"What are you proud of?"

[trigons_child]

"My gifts," Raven said. She held her hands up in front of her face. "My healing. There is little I cannot heal. I am able to take pain from so many. How can I not be proud of that?"

[sharp_as_knives]

"Why shouldn't you be?" Hannibal countered. "You can help a lot of people. It's a reason to be proud. What does that pride make you want?"

[trigons_child]

Raven's eyes took on a red gleam. "Recognition," she said. "There is no healer no powerful than I. I have the powers of a god."

[sharp_as_knives]

Hannibal nodded. "Do you feel that your friends fail to recognize that?"

[trigons_child]

She shook her head, both to indicate no and to try to cast out the dark thoughts. "No," she said, red fading from her eyes. "And I do not require it of them. I am Court Healer, after all, and the act of healing is its own reward."

[sharp_as_knives]

"They do recognize you, you know," he told her with a smile. "Otherwise, you wouldn't be Court Healer. It is a form of recognition and repayment." He reached out to take her hands. "There is no reason to fear your pride, if it doesn't cloud your judgment. Take a moment; let yourself be proud of your abilities and your accomplishments."

[trigons_child]

"Pride calls to my demon blood," Raven said, looking at Hannibal as if she were only half-seeing him. "As do Lust, and Envy, and Wrath. And Greed and Gluttony and Sloth as well, though not nearly as strongly. It wants me to join my brothers and spread evil and misery across the world."

[sharp_as_knives]

"You still think of it as a different part of you. Consider it another way," Hannibal suggested. "Some emotions are addictive. You worry you may become too fond of pride and forget other things of value. Isn't that it?"

[trigons_child]

"If I allow them to, they will consume me," Raven said, nodding a little. "They taste so good. I always want more. I have to fight the hunger, but I do not think I will always be strong enough to do so."

[sharp_as_knives]

"Addictions are like that." Hannibal smiled at her. "What about pleasure, pride in other people, philanthropy; do they feel as good?"

[trigons_child]

Raven glanced toward her friends again. "All emotions taste good, even the negative ones. Even the pain. Sometimes it takes all the will I possess not to rip them out of someone so I might feast."

[sharp_as_knives]

"But if you treat yourself to the pain too often, you'll have a harder time experiencing their pleasure, won't you?" Hannibal asked.

[trigons_child]

Raven closed her eyes, swaying a little as she contemplated how good it would feel to feed on emotions until she was utterly sated. "Pain is more freely given," she murmured. "Pleasure...sometimes. I try not to take without permission, or to take too much."

[sharp_as_knives]

"You have restraint," Hannibal noted approvingly. "Which is better: emotions you take from others, or your own?"

[trigons_child]

"My own...can be confusing," Raven said after a moment's thought. "What I take from others seems so much more pure. I do not care about the reasons someone may love or hate or feel joy or sorrow. I just want the purity of the emotion."

[sharp_as_knives]

"But all emotions are nuanced," Hannibal answered. "Pain mingled with anger, or with satisfaction. Love mingled with possession, or with pride." He smiled at her. "If you cut yourself off from some of them, you aren't experiencing all you could."

[trigons_child]

"I want them all," Raven agreed, voice low and dreamy. "I want to taste everything." She could feel the hunger building in her. So much joy nearby, and she could change it to terror and feed on that as well.

[sharp_as_knives]

"Do you want your friends to suffer?" Hannibal asked. His tone was genuinely questioning, rather than chiding.

[trigons_child]

"I do not care," Raven growled. The red glow of her eyes was stronger now, and her skin began to take on a reddish tint. "They are all beneath me. Their place is at my feet. But...they are family, moreso than my foolish brothers. Perhaps I will take their powers and bestow them on whom I choose. Yes, that would be ideal. But who should be which Sin?"

[sharp_as_knives]

"Why don't you ask them?" Hannibal suggested. He cocked his head at her. "Do you want them to be happy?"